I have never felt more like a failure in all my life.

Has anyone been in a long distance relationship and then had to go through a deployment?

Hai and I haven’t been in a LDR for the past year and now he’s about to leave for his first deployment. I’m not really worried about this deployment, and that kind of worries me. Does that make sense?

Tonight has been a good night (: Made a delicious dinner that Hai adored and we have been in bed since 830, just on our laptops together. To say the least, its been peaceful and great.

God, i love him.

Feeling pretty mopey since Hai is supposed to be coming home today, and still isn’t home yet. Don’t you love not hearing from your man for a few days? :/ 

Sometimes I hate the Army. Especially right before my man is about to deploy. He’s out training all this week and isn’t coming home til late. just freaking sweet. All he’s gonna want to do when he gets home is sleep.

Isn’t Army life fabulous? :/

Sooooo this girl donated plasma today…. Not a fun experience. The fact that I hate needles should’ve given away that this was not going to be a good experience. But NOPE, that didn’t register in my head. Haha. The only thing that really bothered me was that I was there for 3.5 hours, most of it getting evaluated to even donate, and the “pumping my hand” while the machine was running hurt pretty bad. Needless to say, I probably won’t be doing it again, or at least any time soon.

Just ouch.

Another great productive day! (: Full of making tons of pillows and getting “me” time in, since my roommates GF finally left. So WHOOP! :D

It’s been a productive day today! Commissary first thing in the morning, then taking care of all the groceries took til freaking noon. Word to the wise, never go to the commissary on pay day, unless it’s absolutely necessary. But today’s trip was absolutely necessary. Baylee spent two hours at the dog park today too. (: Simply, it’s just been a good day. Drinking lemonade, while watching Holes with my love and my puppy now. (: whoop!

My number two pet peeve about having roommates, (although it’s a close first) is them or people they have over eat mine and Hai’s food. Like if you don’t freaking contribute to the food that you eat in this house, get the fuck out.

Ugh! Only two more weeks. Only two more weeks….

Sooo advice please?

As some of you guys know, Hai is deploying rather soon, and I really don’t know what to do as far as what we do on the weekends. Yesterday all we did was watch what he wanted on TV/netflix and he played video games while I was on my computer and making more pillows to sell all day. Today, Hai left at 6am to go fishing, it’s now almost Noon and he’s not back yet and Idk when he will be. It just seems like we’re only doing what he wants to do, and Idk how to handle that, since he’s leaving soon. Like I want him to have some down time before he deploys, but does that mean we don’t do what I want to do ever? Does any one know what I mean? Please help…